a month? really?

ok, so its been a month since i last posted. that doesn't mean i don't love my blog, does it? i've been crazy busy as well as just plain crazy this past month. so, for those of you who are interested, here is the update:

more health stuff. *sigh* i've had to relay the story to all my friends and family, so i'm getting tired of hearing myself tell it. the CT revealed a mass on my adrenal gland, going to see another specialist in july. that is their first available appointment. a freaking MONTH from now! there is more, but i really don't want to turn this into a list of my physical ailments so we will just leave it at that since it is the most pressing of the items.

still in therapy. i think i'm glossing things over with her just like i do in my personal life. i felt like the last session was just me telling her what i had done during the week and how busy wifey and i are. i'm not paying her to run down my task list. i feel more... out of control would be as close as i could get to describing it... when i'm not there. i make lists of things in my head that i want to mention. but when i sit down and she asks how i feel, i answer "fine" and smile pretty. i really need to cut that shit out.

i'm feeling the pull of my old religious practices again (santeria) and struggling with it. i stopped pracitcing for a reason, but it still speaks to me on a spiritual level. i'm torn. i miss it, but i don't miss the people that i associated with back then.

ummm.... i think thats it. not a lot, i realize. between the baby, the in laws, and my step daughter's work schedule wifey and i (more wifey than me) barely have time to sleep, much less blog.

peace, love, and hair grease.