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so did you guys miss me at all? (here is where you insert a yes. there is no other answer cuz i know you were all missing me so much you couldn't stand it.)
so yeah. merry christmas, happy new year, happy hanukkah and all that jazz. i hope you all had a happy holiday. i got to see my mom for christmas. even if there was an issue on christmas eve, it was still great to spend time with her. we had a party at the house on new year's eve, which was also nice. we all had too much too drink and we all had a great time. i've heard that what you do on new year's eve is what you will be doing all year long. trust me, we rang it in right.
i don't really know why i haven't blogged lately. i guess its been a combination of a lack of time and lack of mojo (or moyo for my faithful readers). life in the spacey/green household has been a busy lately and happier than ever. wifey and i have been so sappy we've even said "we really need to get a room"
i do have to say, though, that she said something to me that made me quite sad the other day. no, it wasn't a fight or anything. it was just an observation that made me want to hold her and never let go. as a result of recent events and comments made to both of us, she said that she was tired of feeling like she had to prove herself to my family and friends. that broke my heart. the fact that someone as good and loving as wifey would feel that way saddens me. her family accepted me even when they thought i was only a "friend" and they really opened their hearts when they found out the truth. wifey hasn't been so lucky with my family and friends. my grandparents have come a long way and accept her now, but it was a rough road. she and my mom had their issues in the past as well, which have been worked out. we both kind of felt like my mom acted a bit different over the christmas holiday, but it could also have just been sensitive feelings over the drama on christmas eve. differing perceptions aside, i've learned that people don't always take the good with the bad when i tell the whole story and assume the worst when i leave out the nasty details. it frustrates me for me and for wifey. for me because i feel like i either can't say a damn thing or i need to over explain so that people don't think that whatever shitty thing is going on in my life is because of her. for her because she doesn't deserve anything but love and acceptance. she is truly the most beautiful human being i've ever known. truth be told, we've been through some shit. but we've been through it together. some of it i put her through, some she put me through and some we were put through as a couple and decided on the best path together. yes she makes me think i'm insane when we fight, but guess what, i'm rude as fuck when we fight too. shit happens. the bottom line is this woman makes me feel things i never thought possible. she makes me smile, laugh and cry from sheer happiness. it makes me crazy that the whole world can't see that.
i have to post a bit of a side note at this point. wifey just asked me what i was writing about and i said "you because you made me sad" to which she replied "you wouldn't post that without telling me first" (after asking me when, of course). when asked why, she said cuz i knew i'd get a spanking for doing something like that (its a deal we have. i'll never blog something she hasn't heard from me first). my answer was of course that i was telling the whole blog world that she was mean to me and called me names (so i can get the spanking, of course). so help me out people, tell her all the horrible stuff i told you guys about her while she wasn't looking so i can cash in!
bring it on, baby!
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