so where have i been? i've been busy being a medical trainwreck, thats where i've been. i've been to more doctor's appointments and had more tests run that i can count anymore. i have literally started carrying around a folder with all the lab results in it and just handing it to each doctor when i go in. i had my adrenal gland removed in september and a liver biopsy in january. meanwhile, the day after thanksgiving, i felt like i'd been hit by a truck. i thought i was just tired from the day before and brushed it off. however, when i saw that it wasn't getting better a few days later, i called the doc. he took me as a walk in right away. the verdict: lupus was inactive when he diagnosed me, but is active now. time to start meds. still on them now, still feeling like holy hell. doc is considering adding a third one to the mix. this whole thing has me trying to accept the diagnosis all over again. i got diagnosed in may and i knew i wouldn't always feel like i did then (no effects to speak of other than minor annoyances), but i thought i'd have a little longer than a few months. as it turns out.... not so much. my energy level is in the crapper. at least it gives me plenty of time to crochet.
in other news, to say things with wifey have been tense lately would be an understatement. however, i think we are on our way to working it out. the bottom line is that we still love each other and i think thats enough to see us through whatever the hell this is that is going on.
for the mean time, i'm still alive and kicking, and thats something.
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Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Monday, June 1, 2009
a month? really?
ok, so its been a month since i last posted. that doesn't mean i don't love my blog, does it? i've been crazy busy as well as just plain crazy this past month. so, for those of you who are interested, here is the update:
more health stuff. *sigh* i've had to relay the story to all my friends and family, so i'm getting tired of hearing myself tell it. the CT revealed a mass on my adrenal gland, going to see another specialist in july. that is their first available appointment. a freaking MONTH from now! there is more, but i really don't want to turn this into a list of my physical ailments so we will just leave it at that since it is the most pressing of the items.
still in therapy. i think i'm glossing things over with her just like i do in my personal life. i felt like the last session was just me telling her what i had done during the week and how busy wifey and i are. i'm not paying her to run down my task list. i feel more... out of control would be as close as i could get to describing it... when i'm not there. i make lists of things in my head that i want to mention. but when i sit down and she asks how i feel, i answer "fine" and smile pretty. i really need to cut that shit out.
i'm feeling the pull of my old religious practices again (santeria) and struggling with it. i stopped pracitcing for a reason, but it still speaks to me on a spiritual level. i'm torn. i miss it, but i don't miss the people that i associated with back then.
ummm.... i think thats it. not a lot, i realize. between the baby, the in laws, and my step daughter's work schedule wifey and i (more wifey than me) barely have time to sleep, much less blog.
peace, love, and hair grease.
more health stuff. *sigh* i've had to relay the story to all my friends and family, so i'm getting tired of hearing myself tell it. the CT revealed a mass on my adrenal gland, going to see another specialist in july. that is their first available appointment. a freaking MONTH from now! there is more, but i really don't want to turn this into a list of my physical ailments so we will just leave it at that since it is the most pressing of the items.
still in therapy. i think i'm glossing things over with her just like i do in my personal life. i felt like the last session was just me telling her what i had done during the week and how busy wifey and i are. i'm not paying her to run down my task list. i feel more... out of control would be as close as i could get to describing it... when i'm not there. i make lists of things in my head that i want to mention. but when i sit down and she asks how i feel, i answer "fine" and smile pretty. i really need to cut that shit out.
i'm feeling the pull of my old religious practices again (santeria) and struggling with it. i stopped pracitcing for a reason, but it still speaks to me on a spiritual level. i'm torn. i miss it, but i don't miss the people that i associated with back then.
ummm.... i think thats it. not a lot, i realize. between the baby, the in laws, and my step daughter's work schedule wifey and i (more wifey than me) barely have time to sleep, much less blog.
peace, love, and hair grease.
Friday, May 1, 2009
not really here, only a figment of your imagination
so, i've been MIA for a few days. i don't really have an explanation, other than the fact that true to my astrological sign, i can be a crab sometimes and retreat into my shell. i get quiet and don't feel like interacting much. i have mentioned previously the love affair i am having with facebook. but it goes even deeper than that. when don't feel like talking much, facebook lets me look out the peephole while staying in my little safe space. i can keep up with people without having to actually "say" anything. i can take a quiz and post my results or read my friends updates, etc. i have still been reading blogs almost every day, but when i'm in that mood, i rarely comment. so for those of you whose blogs i read, i still love ya! ;-)
here is whats been going on in my world:
i'm officially a step-grandma. the baby is almost two months old now. i thought i had already mentioned that on here, but i just looked at my posts and see that i didn't. i know mentioned it on facebook. (just more proof of how i'm cheating on my blog with facebook)
went to the rheumatologist, had my blood work interpreted, had some re-done. its lupus. it is, however, progressing slowly. for now, i need to get a ct of my lungs (he found an "abnormality" on my chest xray) and see him every 3 months. no meds or anything yet.
i went to see a therapist for the first time in my adult life this week. i liked her. of course it was the getting to know you session, so she didn't have any words of wisdom for me yet. i'm keeping an open mind, though.
i am back on the induction phase of atkins. so far i've lost 10 pounds, which is freaking awesome after being stalled for ever and a day. since i'm being much more strict, i'm cooking my own meals again, which has gotten me back into the kitchen. i LOVE that.
other than that, not much is going on. i'm still in love with my wife, i'm still employed. all good stuff.
in other news, while i was in my quiet space, there were a few days that i didn't log into my google reader. when i finally did, over 1000 updates. i think its time to re-evaluate my subscriptions.
i'm still sort of in the quiet-ish mood, but i'm around.
here is whats been going on in my world:
i'm officially a step-grandma. the baby is almost two months old now. i thought i had already mentioned that on here, but i just looked at my posts and see that i didn't. i know mentioned it on facebook. (just more proof of how i'm cheating on my blog with facebook)
went to the rheumatologist, had my blood work interpreted, had some re-done. its lupus. it is, however, progressing slowly. for now, i need to get a ct of my lungs (he found an "abnormality" on my chest xray) and see him every 3 months. no meds or anything yet.
i went to see a therapist for the first time in my adult life this week. i liked her. of course it was the getting to know you session, so she didn't have any words of wisdom for me yet. i'm keeping an open mind, though.
i am back on the induction phase of atkins. so far i've lost 10 pounds, which is freaking awesome after being stalled for ever and a day. since i'm being much more strict, i'm cooking my own meals again, which has gotten me back into the kitchen. i LOVE that.
other than that, not much is going on. i'm still in love with my wife, i'm still employed. all good stuff.
in other news, while i was in my quiet space, there were a few days that i didn't log into my google reader. when i finally did, over 1000 updates. i think its time to re-evaluate my subscriptions.
i'm still sort of in the quiet-ish mood, but i'm around.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
insert catchy blog entry title here
this is a copy of an old post from my old blog (efx2blogs). some smilies, graphics, and/or links may be missing, but you get the idea.
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forgive me bloggers for i have sinned. it has been over a month since my last entry. as i was telling a bloggie friend who asked where i had been today, real life has come at me hard and fast recently. now if the wife would just do the same, all would be right in my world. ;-)
so what has kept me away from my blog, you ask? nothing and everything all at once. nice use of a greenday lyric, eh? :-) seriously, it is nothing and everything. i was sick, we moved, the holidays were here, we were unpacking (still not finished), cleaning the old house, making trips to the dump to throw things out, etc. there was not major catastrophe, i was just busy being busy.
i would really love to do a dirty thirty so that i could blog about something other than just an update, but i just don't have the time tonight. its after 1:30 and i should be in bed soon. so, for those of you that wanna know, here is the rundown:
weight loss: my second plateau finally ended. shortly after we moved in, i weighed myself and discovered i had dropped another 3 pounds. *does the happy girl dance* its not a huge amount, but its better than no movement which is what i had for a bit there. that brings my grand total to..... drumroll please... 62! go stacey! its your birthday! *does a booty shakin dance*
health junk: the pills the doc gave me for the arrythmia did not sit well with me (major dizzy spells), so i'm not taking them anymore. going for a follow up in a few days. i haven't been able to work out since we moved since the house is still upside down and i work out at home. i actually miss it.
the move/home life: we moved in with the wife's parents so that wifey can take care of them. so far, so good. the parents love having her here and she loves being here for them. its a 6 bedroom house divided into a 2/1 for the parents and a 4/2 for us. it is joined only by a common laundry area, which when left open makes it like one big house and when closed provides just enough privacy. the kids have adjusted to the change and we all like the house. we still have plenty of unpacking to do, but we are moving right along. the wife and i are doing awesome as well. there have been none of the fights you would expect in a stressful situation like this. yes, we are that couple that is so cute we make you sick. *happy smile*
work is, as always, work. nothing new. i guess that is a good thing though since it means i have nothing to complain about.
that is about the size of whats up in my world lately.
before the move i was writing a bit on my lunch breaks and i wanted to post a few things (including the continuation of my erotic story for those of you who remember it), but they need a little editing before i do that. hopefully i will have time to blog more again soon. i promise to try and peek in on you guys more often. oh and please be up to no good when i do peek in so i can watch! ;-)
peace, love and hair grease peeps! *wave*
Posted: 1:29 AM, 1/23/2008
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forgive me bloggers for i have sinned. it has been over a month since my last entry. as i was telling a bloggie friend who asked where i had been today, real life has come at me hard and fast recently. now if the wife would just do the same, all would be right in my world. ;-)
so what has kept me away from my blog, you ask? nothing and everything all at once. nice use of a greenday lyric, eh? :-) seriously, it is nothing and everything. i was sick, we moved, the holidays were here, we were unpacking (still not finished), cleaning the old house, making trips to the dump to throw things out, etc. there was not major catastrophe, i was just busy being busy.
i would really love to do a dirty thirty so that i could blog about something other than just an update, but i just don't have the time tonight. its after 1:30 and i should be in bed soon. so, for those of you that wanna know, here is the rundown:
weight loss: my second plateau finally ended. shortly after we moved in, i weighed myself and discovered i had dropped another 3 pounds. *does the happy girl dance* its not a huge amount, but its better than no movement which is what i had for a bit there. that brings my grand total to..... drumroll please... 62! go stacey! its your birthday! *does a booty shakin dance*
health junk: the pills the doc gave me for the arrythmia did not sit well with me (major dizzy spells), so i'm not taking them anymore. going for a follow up in a few days. i haven't been able to work out since we moved since the house is still upside down and i work out at home. i actually miss it.
the move/home life: we moved in with the wife's parents so that wifey can take care of them. so far, so good. the parents love having her here and she loves being here for them. its a 6 bedroom house divided into a 2/1 for the parents and a 4/2 for us. it is joined only by a common laundry area, which when left open makes it like one big house and when closed provides just enough privacy. the kids have adjusted to the change and we all like the house. we still have plenty of unpacking to do, but we are moving right along. the wife and i are doing awesome as well. there have been none of the fights you would expect in a stressful situation like this. yes, we are that couple that is so cute we make you sick. *happy smile*
work is, as always, work. nothing new. i guess that is a good thing though since it means i have nothing to complain about.
that is about the size of whats up in my world lately.
before the move i was writing a bit on my lunch breaks and i wanted to post a few things (including the continuation of my erotic story for those of you who remember it), but they need a little editing before i do that. hopefully i will have time to blog more again soon. i promise to try and peek in on you guys more often. oh and please be up to no good when i do peek in so i can watch! ;-)
peace, love and hair grease peeps! *wave*
Posted: 1:29 AM, 1/23/2008
Monday, October 22, 2007
what's new pussycat?
this is a copy of an old post from my old blog (efx2blogs). some smilies, graphics, and/or links may be missing, but you get the idea.
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i don't have much time to blog today, so how about a quick and diry update?
weight loss: down a few more pounds. the grand total is now 59. i now weigh less than i can ever remember weighing. i'm sure i weighed less in high school, but i don't remember what the number was. maybe i've blocked it from my memory. i am loving the new number on the scale. i actually feel like i'm strutting and purring when i walk. the wife seems to have noticed too, which rocks!
health: one test down, one to go plus a monitor for 24 hours. wifey was recovering from the bronchitis and then caught a stomach virus. she wound up spending the night in the hosptial for dehydration. then, she gave it to me. oh there was just tons-o-fun to be had in our house. LOL.
finances: still in the crapper
work: still work
got lots on my mind but no time to post. catch ya on the flip side!
Posted: 3:22 PM, 10/22/2007
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i don't have much time to blog today, so how about a quick and diry update?
weight loss: down a few more pounds. the grand total is now 59. i now weigh less than i can ever remember weighing. i'm sure i weighed less in high school, but i don't remember what the number was. maybe i've blocked it from my memory. i am loving the new number on the scale. i actually feel like i'm strutting and purring when i walk. the wife seems to have noticed too, which rocks!
health: one test down, one to go plus a monitor for 24 hours. wifey was recovering from the bronchitis and then caught a stomach virus. she wound up spending the night in the hosptial for dehydration. then, she gave it to me. oh there was just tons-o-fun to be had in our house. LOL.
finances: still in the crapper
work: still work
got lots on my mind but no time to post. catch ya on the flip side!
Posted: 3:22 PM, 10/22/2007
Friday, May 4, 2007
progess
this is a copy of an old post from my old blog (efx2 which then became efx2blogs). in the end, the final incarnation (efx2blogs) went down one too many times for me, so i switched to blogger. i was able to recover most of my older stuff (efx2) from archive.org. some smilies, graphics, and/or links may be missing, but you get the idea.
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after 2 weeks of doing pilates 5 times a week, i decided to weigh myself again and i was pleased. i'm down 3 more pounds. that makes a total of 37 pounds in exactly 5 months (today is exactly 5 months since i began this journey).
in other news, peace has returned to my house again. *whew* wifey and i are back to being the cute, happy couple we normally are. life is good.
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after 2 weeks of doing pilates 5 times a week, i decided to weigh myself again and i was pleased. i'm down 3 more pounds. that makes a total of 37 pounds in exactly 5 months (today is exactly 5 months since i began this journey).
in other news, peace has returned to my house again. *whew* wifey and i are back to being the cute, happy couple we normally are. life is good.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
what's going on today
this is a copy of an old post from my old blog (efx2 which then became efx2blogs). in the end, the final incarnation (efx2blogs) went down one too many times for me, so i switched to blogger. i was able to recover most of my older stuff (efx2) from archive.org. some smilies, graphics, and/or links may be missing, but you get the idea.
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here's the rundown in stacey-ville today:
we are going to see the friend's house tonight, i think. i was able to finish the scratch mitts for her baby last night. took pics. when i figure the gallery out, i'll put them up there.
wifey is sick. it breaks my heart to see her in pain.
i have to play financial magician today. time to re-do our budget. we are trying to set ourselves up so wifey can quit her job and freelance full time. these crazy hours she is keeping are for the birds.
my shoulder was killing me. nothing new. i hurt it arguing with the wife one day (no, i didn't throw anything. i was holding the phone so tight that i heard my shoulder crack) and it hasn't been the same since. but a sweet coworker of mine fixed it for me. for the moment anyway
i'm listening to spanish music today. it makes me feel.....caliente (hot for the non spanish speakers). i know that sounds hokey, but its true. makes me wanna say "ay! que rico!" actually, thats probably not it. lately i feel like i'm purring all the time ala eartha kitt. sweetie says its the age, says i'm at my sexual peak. lol.
I'm feeling: purring Listening to: Alucinado - Tiziano Ferro
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here's the rundown in stacey-ville today:
we are going to see the friend's house tonight, i think. i was able to finish the scratch mitts for her baby last night. took pics. when i figure the gallery out, i'll put them up there.
wifey is sick. it breaks my heart to see her in pain.
i have to play financial magician today. time to re-do our budget. we are trying to set ourselves up so wifey can quit her job and freelance full time. these crazy hours she is keeping are for the birds.
my shoulder was killing me. nothing new. i hurt it arguing with the wife one day (no, i didn't throw anything. i was holding the phone so tight that i heard my shoulder crack) and it hasn't been the same since. but a sweet coworker of mine fixed it for me. for the moment anyway
i'm listening to spanish music today. it makes me feel.....caliente (hot for the non spanish speakers). i know that sounds hokey, but its true. makes me wanna say "ay! que rico!" actually, thats probably not it. lately i feel like i'm purring all the time ala eartha kitt. sweetie says its the age, says i'm at my sexual peak. lol.
I'm feeling: purring Listening to: Alucinado - Tiziano Ferro
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