this is a copy of an old post from my old blog (efx2blogs). some smilies, graphics, and/or links may be missing, but you get the idea.
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12/4 was a milestone for me. it marked one year on atkins. the low carb group i belong to calls it an "atkins-versary". i celebrated with low carb cheesecake. :-) i am quite proud of myself. the last time i did atkins, i didn't lose quite as much and i had cheat days. not for lack of willpower, but because i was attempting to shock my metabolism when i hit a plateau. i've hit two plateaus (including the one i'm on at present) on this second journey, but i decided to wait it out instead of having a planned cheat day. i didn't even cheat on thanksgiving. and you know what? i didn't feel deprived at ALL. i just made myself low carb, sugar free things to eat and i was fine. i even made a low carb pumpkin cheesecake that was fucking awesome.
the wife and kids keep telling me that i have awesome willpower, but i don't even see it like that. to me, its just the way i eat now. i don't miss any of the carb filled treats anymore. my efforts have been richly rewarded, which makes it easier as well. i'm now fit enough to work out on a regular basis, i'm wearing clothes that are two sizes smaller, and i've lost a total of 60 pounds. i may be plateau-ing like a big dog, but i'm a happy camper. i get compliments almost on a daily basis.
so, one year of watching everything that goes onto my plate and into my mouth, working out and drinking more water than i thought humanly possible before i started. now i just have the rest of my life to go. :-)
Posted: 4:48 PM, 12/7/2007 in Diary of a fat girl
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Friday, December 7, 2007
Monday, December 11, 2006
one week down, a lifetime to go
this is a copy of an old post from my old blog (efx2 which then became efx2blogs). in the end, the final incarnation (efx2blogs) went down one too many times for me, so i switched to blogger. i was able to recover most of my older stuff (efx2) from archive.org. some smilies, graphics, and/or links may be missing, but you get the idea.
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well today completes my first week back on the low carb diet. and wouldn't you know it, just when i needed it the most, i can't figure out if i've lost anything or not. the difference between my weight at the doc's the last time i went and my weight last night was 14 pounds, but i'm not convinced. i will have to figure out how off my home scale is and readjust the total.
but, so far so good. seeing as how i have a tendency to hit the wall after losing a certain amount, i'm tracking what i eat more closely than i used to, looking for trends. i lost 45 pounds last time i did low carb and then hit a wall for like 6 months. i'm hoping that doesn't happen again this time. i'm more aware of what might be causing that (hormonal imbalance discovered by the gyno) and i don't intend to let it get the best of me.
i tried a new recipe last night (pork chops with garlic cream sauce) and the chops came out waaaaay too salty. dangit! i hate it when something i cook doesn't turn out yummy! combine that with the chorizo i made for breakfast that i didn't like (new brand, too chunky. i like my chorizo finely ground) and i'd say i had a bad culinary day. the low carb cheesecake i made did come out quite delicious, though. one of the things i love so much about low carbing is that wifey lets me cook lots since i can do the carb counting in my sleep practically and i LOVE to cook.
I'm feeling: better
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well today completes my first week back on the low carb diet. and wouldn't you know it, just when i needed it the most, i can't figure out if i've lost anything or not. the difference between my weight at the doc's the last time i went and my weight last night was 14 pounds, but i'm not convinced. i will have to figure out how off my home scale is and readjust the total.
but, so far so good. seeing as how i have a tendency to hit the wall after losing a certain amount, i'm tracking what i eat more closely than i used to, looking for trends. i lost 45 pounds last time i did low carb and then hit a wall for like 6 months. i'm hoping that doesn't happen again this time. i'm more aware of what might be causing that (hormonal imbalance discovered by the gyno) and i don't intend to let it get the best of me.
i tried a new recipe last night (pork chops with garlic cream sauce) and the chops came out waaaaay too salty. dangit! i hate it when something i cook doesn't turn out yummy! combine that with the chorizo i made for breakfast that i didn't like (new brand, too chunky. i like my chorizo finely ground) and i'd say i had a bad culinary day. the low carb cheesecake i made did come out quite delicious, though. one of the things i love so much about low carbing is that wifey lets me cook lots since i can do the carb counting in my sleep practically and i LOVE to cook.
I'm feeling: better
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
rambling
this is a copy of an old post from my old blog (efx2 which then became efx2blogs). in the end, the final incarnation (efx2blogs) went down one too many times for me, so i switched to blogger. i was able to recover most of my older stuff (efx2) from archive.org. some smilies, graphics, and/or links may be missing, but you get the idea.
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so much of my life has been spent counting. counting calories, exchanges, points, carbs, pounds, inches and dress sizes. i can't tell you how many times i've heard "you have such a pretty face" which ineveitably translates to me "but your body is FUCKED up." yes, my friends, i am a fat chick. saying that out loud feels like i am revealing some deep dark secret. people around the blogosphere have referred to me as "sexy" which makes it feel like an even deeper, darker secret. fat girls aren't sexy. i know that wifey finds me sexy, which blows my mind cuz she's seen me at my worst: she's seen me naked.
it seems the older i get, the worse the problem gets. i'm at the point where, according to my pulmonologist, it is causing me to have sleep apnea. yes, thats another confession. sexy girls don't stop breathing when they sleep. but thats my reality. the apnea causes lack of oxygen which causes migraines. it also causes a lack of restful sleep which leads to all day fatigue. according to my primary doctor, i now have high blood pressure and high blood sugar, also weight related. its do or die time and she suggests gastric bypass. wifey says no and i'm terrified of it. doc says she's monitored me for a year now and its my only option. on the one hand, its an end to the counting. on the other, i feel defeated. i feel like she's told me i can't do it on my own.
in addition to all the lovlieness i've already mentioned, i also have contstant back pain which is made worse by, you guessed it, my weight. i swear i could have a cold and my doc would blame my weight. every doc i saw after the accident which actually herniated the disc, the weight makes it worse. but i can't exercise to help the weight loss along because i'm in pain.
i've heard countless opinions as to what makes me over weight. its the one donut they saw me eat, nevermind the fact that it was probably the only one that week or even that month. but of course that must be the culprit. because i'm fat i must eat them by the dozens at home when nobody is looking. i've heard about every diet every family member/friend/aquiaintance of everyone i know has ever done that worked for them.
what i really want is to one day like what i see in the mirror, that when my boss offers to take me to the spa (like she did today) that my first thought won't be "not in a bathing suit!"
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so much of my life has been spent counting. counting calories, exchanges, points, carbs, pounds, inches and dress sizes. i can't tell you how many times i've heard "you have such a pretty face" which ineveitably translates to me "but your body is FUCKED up." yes, my friends, i am a fat chick. saying that out loud feels like i am revealing some deep dark secret. people around the blogosphere have referred to me as "sexy" which makes it feel like an even deeper, darker secret. fat girls aren't sexy. i know that wifey finds me sexy, which blows my mind cuz she's seen me at my worst: she's seen me naked.
it seems the older i get, the worse the problem gets. i'm at the point where, according to my pulmonologist, it is causing me to have sleep apnea. yes, thats another confession. sexy girls don't stop breathing when they sleep. but thats my reality. the apnea causes lack of oxygen which causes migraines. it also causes a lack of restful sleep which leads to all day fatigue. according to my primary doctor, i now have high blood pressure and high blood sugar, also weight related. its do or die time and she suggests gastric bypass. wifey says no and i'm terrified of it. doc says she's monitored me for a year now and its my only option. on the one hand, its an end to the counting. on the other, i feel defeated. i feel like she's told me i can't do it on my own.
in addition to all the lovlieness i've already mentioned, i also have contstant back pain which is made worse by, you guessed it, my weight. i swear i could have a cold and my doc would blame my weight. every doc i saw after the accident which actually herniated the disc, the weight makes it worse. but i can't exercise to help the weight loss along because i'm in pain.
i've heard countless opinions as to what makes me over weight. its the one donut they saw me eat, nevermind the fact that it was probably the only one that week or even that month. but of course that must be the culprit. because i'm fat i must eat them by the dozens at home when nobody is looking. i've heard about every diet every family member/friend/aquiaintance of everyone i know has ever done that worked for them.
what i really want is to one day like what i see in the mirror, that when my boss offers to take me to the spa (like she did today) that my first thought won't be "not in a bathing suit!"
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